Am I Enough?

What a whirlwind the month of May has been. I have been working from home while the doctors try to figure out which autoimmune disease I may have, my husband and I have started a new business venture, we are in the process of moving into a new house, and we are in the very early stages of starting the adoption process. We are running around like chickens with our heads removed.

Most days, I have not felt like I am enough. I feel as if I am falling short in so many ways. I used to be strong, you guys, like really strong. This will be the third move for my husband and me. Before I could move furniture without a problem; I was able to keep up with my husband and be a helper to him. Since becoming sick, I have almost zero energy. We were moving in new furniture this week, and I felt I was more of a hindrance than a help. Bless my dear husband for being so patient.

I was lamenting my feelings of inadequacy to my mother, and she sent me a text with the most wonderful quote. I think it’s going to do me good to read this every morning and every evening. “Some days doing ‘the best we can’ may still fall short of what we would like to be able to do, but life isn’t perfect—on any front—and doing what we can with what we have is the most we should expect of ourselves or anyone else.” Mr. Rogers

My mom knew I needed to hear the wisdom of Mr. Rogers in that moment; she is one of the very best when it comes to bestowing wisdom. I can’t remember a time in my life where I have felt myself falling short of every goal I have set and feeling very insufficient. I just am not the same person I was, and I am having to try and accept and love the new person I am now.

My weight has gone the wrong direction over this past month as well, not helping my feelings any. Not feeling well has become a crutch, an excuse, for not eating as healthy as I should. Of all the things happening in my life right now, most are out of my control; but what I put in my mouth is in my control. I have to jump back into eating healthy, and hopefully that will restore a sense of normalcy in my life.

The recipe this week is a great salad. It is one that doesn’t feel like you are eating healthy, and it will please even your pickiest eater. I hope you enjoy this Italian Cauliflower Salad as much as I do.

“Whatever you do, work heartily, as for the Lord and not for men, knowing that from the Lord you will receive the inheritance as your reward. You are serving the Lord Christ.” Colossians 3:23-24